Is there anyone out there who like me have completely jacked in church going and christianity and no longer?

no longer can be bothered to go to church anymore,read the bible or pray.Has anyone like me said numerous ''Sinners Prayers''over the years and asking jesus to be saviour without really meaning any of it,and having no intentions of turning from all that is wrong,or am i the only one that fails everytime i've fancied the idea of being a christian,and just carried on swearing cussing cursing blasheming,spending all my money on material things,and just generally doing what i want and not going Gods way,and also like me used to go ''Church Hopping'' for years,but now are so utterly Sick of it all and going to church and trying to follow christianity have now just thrown away my bible,christian books,christian ornaments,cd's the lot,and have made a decision to never go near a church again,pray or read a bible.I destroyed my bible i was given,as found it boring and could never be bothered with it half the time.I now feel angry about all the years i wasted having anything to do with church.H